May 26th, 2006
NOW OPEN POSTED AT 12:43 PM as a stickied post so.KICK.me now open for friends only. comment if you want to be added. =)
my not so private blog is here: http://kick07.multiply.com 
Reading: chromosome 6 by robin cook Listening to: I Think God Can Explain - Splender Feeling: alikoy-ish burst my bubble
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March 24th, 2007
at a loss POSTED AT 11:47 AM she's been crying nonstop since they broke up. she's been failing her exams, someimes coming to class hungover. she stopped eating, thinking maybe her ex left her because he thought she was fat (when in fact she's underweight already), until she had ulcers and had to be rushed to the hospital. she's already contemplating her next attempt of suicide. she's wrecking her life. all these because of a guy. a guy who wasn't man enough to tell her he no longer loved her; who wasn't brave enough to admit it was over; who instead started dating someone else and waited for her to find out and break it up with him. and as if that was not enough, who was so cruel, that he told her he still felt something for her and just needed time, when in fact he was already in another relationship. she believed him. she begged him to stay. she told her to leave the girl and come back to her and she'd accept him like nothing happened. he kissed her, but he didn't come back. and he's still hanging around saying they can be friends. son of a b*tch. he left her. and yet he won't let her move on. she can't move on. she doesn't know what to do now, after 3 and a half years of her life only revolving around him. she asked me to pray for her -- that he'd realize he was wrong and come back to him. i wanted to cry. and i wanted to shout at her, slap her, and shake her until she comes to her wits. he is not worth it! and yet i didn't, because i knew it wouldn't do anything to reduce the pain. so i nodded. but that night when i prayed, i couldn't say it. so i asked Him to decide what's best for her instead. and i stayed with her, and watched her while she slept, until she left an hour ago. i almost wasn't able to sleep, afraid that she might try to kill herself right under my nose. but for how long can someone stay with her and make sure she'll be okay? she HAS to move on. i don't know how to make her. i don't know what to say. i know nothing i can do can ease her pain. Reading: full house by janet evanovich Listening to: way into love Watching: heroes Feeling: worried |
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January 29th, 2007
denial POSTED AT 07:32 PM as a favorite post walking along your street
(no I'm not going to you) i'm just passing by (trying to ignore you're near) my eyes are looking down (i'm watching my step) i'm not trying to see if you're here (are your windows lit?) i've gone past at last (i sigh in relief) you had no effect at all (why the fluttering heart?) i stop and take a breath (no i do not want to..) i smile and shake my head (look back towards your door) so i walked past your street (it wasn't you i was going to) i just had to go somewhere (maybe somewhere near you?) Reading: Moore and Persaud's 'The Developing Human' Watching: Grey''s Anatomy S3 E13 Feeling: blah |
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July 25th, 2006
My Favorite Regret - Gigolo Aunts POSTED AT 11:56 AM Could I be your sweetest mistake? Trade one step back for two ahead Just a little time that's all Don't be afraid to fall This catch I won't forget, My favorite regret. Won't you let me chip away the stone Are you really better off alone? Won't you let your guard down one more time Just like I've done mine We'll look until we find something neither will forget My favorite regret My favorite regret Will you be my favorite regret? Cut the strings attached but save the thread And I know your feelings are probably right But just this once tonight As you lay in your bed Place a little on this bet My favorite regret Reading: Moore and Dalley's Clinically Oriented Anatomy Listening to: My Favorite Regret by Gigolo Aunts Feeling: lazy |
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May 27th, 2006
invisible POSTED AT 06:32 PM *ripped from my blogspot watching you smile
Listening to: in this life by chantal kreviazuk Watching: veronica mars Feeling: invisible |
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